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Okay, so a friend tells me I'm overdoing it. I'm crying to everyone that I'm disciplined enough or organized enough to accomplish my goals - and everyone watching me thinks I need rest and to learn when to take a break. Am I in Bizarro World?

Had to swallow some pride with regard to a recent job offer. I could make much more money than was offered, and I have been used terribly, but this job is the best one for Faeron. I'm close to her daycare and won't have to move her again, and I know I can take off work if she's sick. So I let them treat me like they're doing me a favor by condiscending to offer me a permanent position. It hurts. I would have never done this before becoming a mother. I would have taken the good money and respect offered elsewhere. My supervisor is the only thing my company has going for it - and they don't even know it.

Perhaps this professional struggle has made everything too tiresome and everyone is right. But how to take a break? What do I sacrifice? I cannot give up any time with Faeron or in caring for her. Can't take less time at work. Can't skip the cooking or cleaning or laundry. WON'T skip the treadmill time... I'm stuck. There is no break for me.

Back to wishing I was more disciplined and organized. Anyone want a hit with this hammer?